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03 December 2011 @ 12:07 pm

This Journal is friends locked.  I don’t post personal things often but occasionally they do appear.  I have seen my phrases/words appear on other fansites without crediting/proper crediting; therefore, in order to avoid any copyright issues, this decision is being made.


Basically all picture/ranting/fangirling posts are locked.  I’m a Yunjae fan, most of the times I share Yunjae information/pics on my LJ.  One of the many things that I enjoy doing is to discuss Yunjae with my fellow Yunjae lovers/believers.  These posts are being locked for two purposes: first one goes back to copyright and hot-linking issue and the second one being that it’s more convenient and more user friendly for non-Yunjae fans.  The last thing I imagine doing is to upset someone that I do not know.  That’s not my intention, not at all.


I write Fanfics as well.  I usually post at two places; one on my LJ and the other is the community iheartkamo.  For a complete list of my fanfiction, please click here or visit the entry below.  Some of my fics are locked due to their ratings.  PG-13 or below are safe and open to everyone.  However, anything that’s above PG-13 will be locked.  In order to access those locked entries, you have to friend this LJ. 


~^~ To friend me ~^~


Please leave a comment here! ^^ If you want to be friends and not adding me only for my locked fanfics, it would be nice to add a small introduction as well.  It wouldn’t hurt to make more friends, would it? ^^ You don’t have to share personal info, just leave me your name and a reason why you want to friend this LJ would be enough!


Lastly, I want to thank everyone who is willing to go through all the unnecessary trouble to friend me.  I appreciate your time and effort.  I will add you back as soon as I see your comments! XD


Salute to you my dear friends! <333

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Current Mood: energeticenergetic
Current Music: Love in the Ice-DBSK
24 November 2010 @ 12:46 am

Sometimes she wishes that he would spit out the truth and tell her that she’s nothing to him. He’s using her for a place, for money, for food. They are nothing but school mates and maybe, just maybe kinda friends.

She’s young and in some areas lacking experiences in the real world. This doesn’t mean she’s stupid however maybe naïve. He sees that and uses it to control and play with her mind.

That’s how she sees it anyways.

He’s just lying to me. He does not see me as his best friend because his actions do not carry through.

When she’s with him, she’s sometimes happy and sometimes down. He affects her too much more than she wants him to. It’s scaring her a little. She admits that she’s emotional and she takes things way too seriously but if he was a good friend, she would feel secure with him no matter what he did to her.

Maybe it’s just his personality. Sometimes she tells herself that and convinces herself that it’s nothing but her mind.

But deep down she knows something is off. Something’s always bugging her.

He’s a good person. She says to everyone. It’s just that she feels insecure with him. She would trust her other best friends to save her life but not him. She doesn’t trust him. He would shrug it off and act like he didn’t know a thing.

It’s not fair to him. Right, it is not for he doesn’t know anything about what she’s thinking. She’s too sensitive to be his friend. She knows and perhaps he does too. She tries to hide it so that he does not get irritated with her. She wants him to like her, desperately.

But inside, she’s suffering. She’s in pain and the pain is building up.

Until one day, all the emotions erupted. She cried in her room.

He texted and asked what was wrong. She said something was bothering her and that she felt used by a close friend.

He asked who.

She said she couldn’t tell him.

He said why not.

She replied sorry but she really couldn’t tell him.

He said fine.

She asked if he was irritated with her.

He texted the word “shrugs” and told her to do as she wishes.

Current Mood: confusedconfused
02 August 2009 @ 05:46 pm
How is everyone doing? I haven't done anything for so long ne? However, lately I have been having this feeling that if I don't let this out, I'm going to go insane.

This is not going to be a positive post, so don't read on if you are already depressed. T.T


I'm not saying this is the end. Right now, we need to have more faith and keep supporting them stronger than ever. They probably have obstacles, differences and perhaps even confusions. I will give them and myself time, since I am not ready to surrender. I cannot do anything but believe in them and I really do. It's just that what has happened really disappointed me. I understand why Jaejoong, Junsu and Yoochun sued SME, SME deserved it too since they suck to no end. (HATE LSM with Passion). The thing with this is that only three out of five sued. If they sue, they should sue together. You can argue that because Yunho and Changmin are busy with drama shooting, therefore they do not have the time to participate but honestly, I do not buy this. Five is, no matter what, more powerful than just three. DBSK is FOREVER bigger than any individual member.

Regarding member having seperate schedules, once again, I panic. I'm happy that finally Yunho gets to act in a drama because he is a natural. I'm glad Changmin is going to act too because he has what it takes to become an actor (handsome, tall and all that). Still, it makes me wonder if this is what's going to be next, members acting seperately. You can argue with me that this is not a big deal, BB does this all the time and they are still together, but deep down I know you wonder too. They have been together for 8 years, why now? Maybe I think too much but my gut is telling me this is different and something is wrong.

Anyways, I'm not asking for counciling since I still believe in them. I will support them no matter together or seperate, they will forever be my one and only LOVE. Whatever happens, I want all of them to be happy. It's alright if they want different things, afterall, nothing can last forever ne?

I admit that I am depressed with what's happened lately. I tried to calm down but instead I came here to vent. Lol, I hope you are not annoyed with another one of these posts. Maybe you think it's stupid to worry now since we know nothing and there is nothing we can do. I agree but since I can't stop myself, I will just let it be.

Well, Last thing. I'm going to CA (Sacramento) this fall for pharmacy school, so I might run into you if you live there. lol, I noticed a lot of people on my F-list are from CA, so HI to all of you!



I might have another post later regarding Yunjae (which is sadly another problem), please share your thoughts too.

Current Music: stand by U - tohoshinki
10 May 2009 @ 02:18 pm
Hello! Sorry I haven't updated on the merchandise info, I have been busy with my finals.

A few days back, I posted

If you are still interested, please let me know exactly what you want and your sizes, all sizes are available. Also please identify your location, so I can give you information on shipping fee, it shouldn't be too much (I hope).

For the Yunjae shirt, the price is $20, short sleeve and with a picture on the front. they look like these:

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05 May 2009 @ 01:43 am
Junsu!!! Are you alright? Don't force yourself... It hurts to hear that you sang on a wheelchair but I am proud of you because you never give up! Please get better soon as we will always be here waiting! Xiah Junsu hwaiting, you will always be our angel! I believe in you!

T_____________T I cannot not be emo at this moment...

01 May 2009 @ 01:04 am

Hello F-list, I have good news… well, only if you are interested in getting DBSK merchandises and not kill yourself in the process.


I wonder why I hadn’t thought of this earlier… well, finally I did it!


What did I do? Lol, I finally contacted the people on baidu and asked if they could ship DBSK merchandises over since I knew a lot of things are sold out over here or deadly expensive since they are sold out… anyways, I finally got in touch with them and guess what? They said if I have a lot to buy, they are willing to go through the trouble to ship them over, since after all, we are all DBSK/Jaeho fans~


I was going to buy a bunch of things myself, so I thought I should ask since you might want them too. I think if we have a lot of orders, the price will be cheaper too!



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Current Music: 사랑하오-Alex
27 March 2009 @ 05:50 pm

Title: when I can only hear your voice (1/2)
Author: iheartuknow
Length: one-shot
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Fluff, romance, slight angst
Pairings: JaeHo, Yoosu
Summary: At that moment, I realized how luxurious it was to be able hear those words from your loved one while he was still alive…

Disclaimer: I don’t own the boys.

I was listening to this song while writing this piece. (Love, that’s not love)I translated it so check out the translation if you want. If you want the song, let me know. I strongly recommend listening to it while reading.


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My love, thats not love - Angela Zhang</div>

27 March 2009 @ 05:48 pm

Title: when I can only hear your voice (2/2)
Author: iheartuknow 
Length: one-shot
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Fluff, romance, slight angst
Pairings: JaeHo, Yoosu
Summary: At that moment, I realized how luxurious it was to be able hear those words from your loved one while he was still alive…

Disclaimer: I don’t own the boys.



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Love, that’s not love


In the classroom, (you) played your organ, ding ling, ding ling,

Like your gestures of confession, soft and gentle,

(I) smiled as I watched your back, holding your letter,

I like your caring words,

I held tightly onto that bottle of milk,


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Current Music: 亲爱的那不是爱情